A Creeping Creeper

I am making huge strides in my weight loss this week. I have lost all but .2 of the weight that I wanted to lose. When I saw 150.2 hit the scale this morning I almost cried. I am so close, and I want it so badly. I was able to finally get rid of the last few pounds that I have gained and lost quite a few times already. And looking back I have not really been on my diet seriously since Easter. Yes I have still been eating ok, but I was not religiously logging my food, and my cheat moments were becoming more regular. I have gotten back to regular this week and the scale is thanking me for it.

Sometimes my life seems so out of control, with worrying about money, schedules, jobs, things, I just become overwhelmed, at least this is one thing that I am happy with and can maintain.

A lot of people have asked me how I have lost the weight, I mostly say that I go to the gym 4-5 times a week and stopped eating crap, but there is a lot more to it than that. Weight loss is like a science, a game that you have to master. Here is my schedule and food on a typical diet day:
5am: gym time for 1 hour, either spin class, stairs, or treadmill
8:30am: breakfast 1/3cup dry oatmeal with 1 packet splenda and lately I have been cutting half a banana to add to it (or berries or plain whatever I happen to have)
10:30am: snack, usually a fiber bar or protein shake and a handful of walnuts
12:30pm: lunch, 3-4 oz. chicken or turkey lunch meat and either a salad or 1/2 cup black beans.
2:30pm: snack, handful of walnuts, or fruit bar
6:30pm: dinner, usually 4oz of chicken breast or other protein (sometimes turkey, steak etc.) 1 cup green beans .5 cup carrots steamed together. Or I will eat my green beans and carrots with black beans if I don't have a meat, sometimes I throw a cup of cooked brown rice into the mix, but stay mostly with these foods. Also sushi is a treat that I eat a few times a month, spicy tuna roll with a miso soup and a cup of edamame beans.
8:30pm: snack, my "dessert" I usually have a 100 calorie fudge bar or 1 cup sugar free jello

That usually adds up to roughly 1000ish a day and I try to maintain at least 1200.

I am hoping I reach my goal soon!

May makes me want to kill myself mmmmk

May, ah what a lovely month filled with longer spring nights, relaxing and preparing for your savage tan for summer...yeah effing right. For about the past 10 years of my life May has been full of events. First of all my Mom's birthday is May 7th, which is usually the day right around Mother's Day, yaay. Also my parents had the great idea to get married the next week so their anniversary is the 15th, now that my dad has passed we don't celebrate that anymore. One of my best friends, her birthday is the 16th, yeah we're gonna keep going to hold on tight. My boyfriend who is deeply involved in the aviation and war bird community...oh guess what ALL of the airshows that we frequent are in MAY! This year mom my is retiring, oh you guessed it, in May, as well as having a family get together after her retirement party at my house. This is not to mention that the past 3 years I have had friends all getting married, having babies, etc etc all in May.

What this usually boils down to is me having a fucking panic attack around March as my weekends in May become booked in a matter of a week or so. By the time I actually make it through the month I just want to die but cannot afford to because I have spent all of my money on fucking presents for whatever occasion is occurring.

If someone even thinks about attempting to book something the last week of April I just scoff and say "that's cute, I was booked in March, maybe next time get the jump and let me know mid-January, ok sweetie" haha.

I don't know why this all stresses me out so, but I am the kind of person who likes to sit at home and do nothing. I am not a get up and go yee-haw kind of girl at all. So the idea of running around like a chicken with my head cut off for a whole month just makes me want to take a damn nap.


Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

But I still do it anyway, at least we are halfway there, only 2 more weekends to survive!

AHH Yeah

In just a few hours I will be getting the fuck out of dodge. It doesn't even matter to me where I am going, just the fact that I will be chillin in a hotel room (paid for even, boo-ya) doing whatever the eff that I please. This is exciting. Tomorrow we are going to the Planes of Fame airshow in Chino. (I know, lame, but we get everything paid for because we are VIP like that, lol). It should be all kinds of shenanigans and good times. Let me just say that last year at this same air show I got about 76 sheets to the wind, I mean ugly face crying in the bathroom with a girlfriend, and the next day had the WORST hangover to date that I have ever had. This hangover would probably been fine had I been able to sleep if off the next day, but no my still drunk ass was up at 5:30am, puking while trying to take a shower, puking in a cup in the car while I sat there hoping to die. It was bad. This year my goal is to NOT be that. Also to not succumb to the bomb ass nacho fries they sell there, no I will drink water and eat whatever healthy options are available :)

Oh Internet

I am trying to get over the major humps I have been having



Lol

I have been so effing cranky for a week or so now. I yelled at my boyfriend the other day because I did not like the way he handed me a pen! A PEN!



(I was like this but worse)

WTF is my problem? I am not sure. I have been getting so irritated by everything lately. And before we go on claiming its some lady problems or what have you, I can guarantee it is not. That ship has sailed for this month so I am coo. Maybe I am just in major bitch mode? All I ever want to seem to do is take a nap. I need a rejuvenation a la Ramona on Real Housewives New York (don't hate.)

On the weight loss front I am still struggling to lose the last 5 pounds. Which is probably because I have not been on my diet at all (duh).

So for today I hate everyone and everything. HAHA!

Hmpf

That is how I have been for the past few weeks. My boss finally finished escrow on her house and it has been IN-TENSE around here to say the least. They finally closed last Friday and we spent the weekend moving them in. I am so happy they are finally settled and ready for a nap. Zzzzzzzzzzz.

Ever since Easter I have been having trouble sticking to my diet. I have still been going to the gym everyday but damn I have been a carb eating fool. I haven't gone out and binged on french fries, but I have not been keeping track of my calorie intake and I have been eating a lot of things off of my diet. This is probably why I cannot seem to lose these last 5 pounds. I am really determined but damn this shit is difficult sometimes.

I had a lovely Mother's Day. My boyfriend's family came over as well as my mom, sister, and niece and we had a BBQ (where I consumed entirely too much food) and then I laid down and took a GLORIOUS 2 hour nap. I am serious when I say that nap was the greatest thing to ever happen to me. It was MUCH needed and I am so happy. It will go down in my nap history as top 5, for sure. Just lounged around the rest of the day. It was so nice and I wish that I had more days like that, where I am not running around and being busy.

It is dreaded Monday again, hoping I can make it through the week without crying or gaining weight!